Currently Listening Have a Nice Day By Bon Jovi see related

Hello world! What a life! Well, besides not getting much sleep because my roommate is talking in her sleep and that I have a lot on my plate life is good. I registered for my classes for next semester: English 102, Math 143, Geology 102, Geology Lab, Anthropology 100, Core 111, and Foresics Geology 404-504. Which is a load of 19 credits (Lord I must be crazy!). But I'm happy, so I guess I'm a crazy happy person which is all that matters, right?

Yesterday was a "my day" I went to the best mexican resturant in town, which totally ROCKED! I had taquitos, a margerita and fried ice-cream....yummy! I had a blast. Later I went to the mall where I spent too much money and ate dinner at Lefty's which is another good resturant, AWESOME milkshakes! The day was polished off by talking with Tony

So yeah, if you can't tell, I'm still seeing him, but this is something I think I will be doing for quite a while. I can't help but feel happy when I talk with or about him. People know when I'm thinking about him too because I get this doofy smile, lol. Its just great.

Ohh I'm going home on Thursday, I'll actually be home Friday morning because I won't make it to Seattle on time for the last train. I'm excited to go home and see family and friends. This should be great.

Currently Listening Fallen By Evanescence see related

So the world finally caught up with me. I was sitting here at work listening to music and I starting thinking about well, everything. It caught up and the tears started streaming, there was no stopping them and all I have to say is that thank God I'm here alone. I guess in a way I'm sick of everyone asking me how I'm doing, I know they do if because they care, but still...I guess I shoud stop complaining and be grateful. There has been several times this week that I just wanted to cry, but instead I put on a face, like I've done for most of my life. Its almost too easy. I let everything just pile up on me, as I so often do, then I break down and have to reboot. The rebooting process has already begun. I don't really mind crying, its my way of releasing stress and tension but I hate crying in front of other people. Everything with my roommate and some other friends plus my own guilt has gotten to me. Plus I'm a little confused because I feel so guilty for being happy when others around me are sad or depressed. Not to mention that the chemistry of my body is out of wack and will be for a little longer, hopefully not too long otherwise I just might die. LOL. I'm also a little stressed for this week, I have some big tests and papers to write, but I know this is all within my capability so I guess I should just stop stressing. I just want A's really bad, I know I can do it, I just need to focus, which at times is very hard. I get so caught up with things, mainly a certain person, its like nothing else matters when I'm with him. This I find to be a little dangerous, he does too, with both find ourselves missing class and not doing homework because we want to spend time together. But now that you can graphically see with our grades when we met, we have laid down some rules. They're working pretty well, I actually find myself doing more homework now than before him. So I guess its a good thing. Its 12 days and then I'm home for about a week, that will be nice, I want to see my family and friends. I'm also thinking about stopping by the high school and seeing Mrs. Conditt and Mrs. Heckroth, maybe even stop in on a few other teachers. It will be a nice break, and I am excited for it.